Well I've been down with the flu since Monday and man it's been rough! But not as rough as tomorrow will be. Tomorrow will be my grandmothers birthday and it will be the first time I can't call her. I'm gonna have to do a lot of praying to make it through this.
Saturday afternoon I took my first big step of acceptance and went by her grave for the first time since she's been gone. And that's where it really hit me. She's no longer here. I spent 3 hours on my knees crying and talking to what I felt to be her around me. I walked away with the peace of knowing she is with Jesus and she watching over me!! And it is ok to cry when I'm upset no matter when or where I may be. She was a huge part of my life that I will never forget.